Time To Get Serious

The big 4 - 0 has arrived and brought a lot of major life changes with it. My oldest DD graduated from high school. We followed my hubby's dream job to Arizona and bought a house that we have been renovating. And the biggest thing to rock my world - I went from a stay-at-home mom of 18+ years to working full time. To say it has been stressful would be the world's biggest understatement. My old foes anxiety and the need to please everyone resurfaced and dug in. I started falling back into old unhealthy patterns of binge eating and comforting myself with sweets. By September, I found that my jeans no longer fit.

I reached out on Facebook and a couple of old friends reached back. They have been very patiently waiting on me to get my head in the right place to focus on climbing back out of the abyss. I don't know when the switch flipped, but sometime this weekend, it did. I feel like I have a handle on things at work, and I have developed a daily schedule using time blocking that, in theory, will allow me to accomplish everything that I want to accomplish in a day. Most importantly, though I've remembered that if some of those things don't get done, that it's ok. The world won't come to a screeching halt. No one is going to think less of me if the house isn't clean or if I call for a pizza instead of making a healthy, well-balanced dinner for my family.

My biggest challenge in this upcoming journey is going to be not getting ahead of myself. Not setting myself up for failure by trying to change everything all at once and then beating myself up when I don't live up to my own expectations. It's a pattern that I am going to have to break out of. My family is on board - in fact, my hubby has been super encouraging. So, I think I am finally ready to do this thing for real.

My goal for today was to set up this blog / online journal / whatever it ends up being. So, mission accomplished.

Tomorrow's goals are going to be to drink at least 3 of my Yeti cups full of water, take starting measurements and before photos, and walk the dog as soon as I get home from work. Tomorrow will also be the first day of following my new schedule and seeing where it needs adaptation. I'm not sure if I will check in here everyday or not. So, until then....